Sigh

Aye, I admit to having seriously lapsed in my practice. I haven't forgotten though. I still try to focus on mindfulness. Meditation is only occasional. I'm sure something that keeps from progressing is the fact that Buddhist practices bring up things I've buried and would rather forget. Of course, I can't. They are there regardless if I practice or not. I feel they are a huge block to my finding peace.

Everyone says meditation should never feel like a chore, or something to get over with. So I'm not pushing myself to do it.

Still listen to the Quiet Mind podcasts when there are new ones. Those always help keep me focused. I sometimes re-listen to them while I drive. I think I'll put together a CD of my favourite ones, the ones that energize me and really make me think.

I'm looking forward to my husband being gone on a long weekend trip to see his daughter. Then I can do my 'day of mindfulness'. I find it easier to meditate when he is not here.

Decisions.....

I've quit an expat forum that I've been on for almost 5 years and it's sad because I made many friends there. I admit to being a net-aholic, especially forums. But I found I spent far too much time there, much of it unconstructive and simply a way to procrastinate. I could have been reading, meditating, doing constructive things. I didn't intend to join another forum but was tempted by a group of fellow members who had also quit (long story) and joined a new site. Trying to limit my time but will have to get tough and if I see I can't limit my time to something reasonable, I'll just have to quit.

Reading a book on Anger by Thich Nhat Hahn. It seems quite in depth...more than a simple self-help book. Anything by TNH is always brilliant.